Slow Fade

Eating Disorders do not happen overnight. 

Over and over the repetitive actions become habit. 

Those habits when combined with a genetic predisposition and a need to cope can lead to full blown addiction. An addiction to numbing out.

Recently I heard this song by Casting Crowns called Slow Fade. I thought it spoke well to how things happen in our lives. I don't struggle with eating disorder issues  anymore, but I am not immune to slowly fading into pits that I don't want to be in. To slowly fading into gossiping too much or not standing up for my own values. To slowly fading into losing sight of my goals and dreams.

Geese...I am guilty of slowly fading into un-necessary yelling at my children and I wake up and go..."What am I doing? How did I get here?"

Here are a few words from this song;

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray 
Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day

It's a slow fade, it's a slow fade

The words hit so home in so many ways. How about with you? Can you see how the eating disorder or any other habit or addiction seems to come in quietly until the slow fade..

It's a slow fade when you give yourself away
It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray

Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid
When you give yourself away
People never crumble in a day
Daddies never crumble in a day
Families never crumble in a day

Something to think about. For all of us.

 

Lee 

Comments

[L]

Yeah... yeah... that REALLY hits home for me right now. I think it was some sort of sign that I read those words at this moment. I was just in a couple-day-funk where I just wouldn't listen to anything anyone was telling me. I just soooo badly wanted to follow the eating disorder perfectly yesterday and today. But those words... "choices are made, a price will be paid."... Those words speak to me right now. Thanks for sharing this.

I also like the part where it says "It's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray." I think of the 'black and white' as the eating disordered thinking. The goal is to get that to turn to gray. But it's a slow process. Persistence is obviously required... sometimes I forget that patience is required too. Sometimes I forget that, since it's a slow process, it makes sense that there are slips - otherwise it wouldn't be slow. So... it's slow. That's how it is. Doesn't mean there's not progress though I guess.

[Heather O'Donnell]

I used the lyrics of this song during my Truth in Love when I was at Remuda over a year ago. Everytime I hear it, I remember where I was at that time and how far I've come since then.
Eating disorders don't happen in a day...and neither does recovery. It is still a step by step process. This song will have a permanent place in my heart.

[Amanda]

My eating disorders team is really encouraging me to go to the Methodist eating disorders center. I am being treated at Gundersen Lutheran in La Crosse and I know they have worked with you guys in the past. I am 25 years old, working professional, and have been struggling with anorexia for 8 years. Gundersen takes the approach of not forcing anyone to be hospitalized, but they say I strongly need to go. I am in the process of accepting that. I have spoken with a few people who have gone to Methodist and they say that it really takes the residential program to start recovery. How does that work? Do I need to go to inpatient first. I have good insurance (Blue Cross Blue Shield) and Methodist is a preferred provider. There are obviously lots of things to check in to with that though. I was wondering if you could give me any information. I am at a desperate point and really need more intensive help. I would really appreciate it!