I am so excited that my new book, Goodbye Ed, Hello Me: Recover from Your Eating Disorder and Fall in Love with Life, will be released in September. See the new book cover below. What do you think?!
Anyway, as it turns out, I wrote way too much for the book, and some of the pieces would not fit. (That's a good problem to have actually!) So I am going to start posting some of the things I wrote that did not fit into the book. I posted one piece below. You will notice that my new book is less about Ed and more about life. In Goodbye Ed, Hello Me, I hope you get to know me more. I hope you learn to fall in love with life!
Don't Text Spencer
by Jenni Schaefer
A few days ago, I felt lonely. I wanted to smile and laugh with someone. Instead of calling a true friend who I knew would listen and cheer me up, I sent a text message to Spencer, a guy who predictably ignores me. I sent the message, and, of course, he ignored me. Why did I expect a different result?
One definition of insanity is, “Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.”
I think I am insane. That’s the bad news. The good news is that --- thanks to my work in recovery from my eating disorder --- I can diagnose insanity rather quickly in my life today and work toward positive growth.
During the depths of my eating disorder, my life was immersed in insane thinking. For example, I knew that restricting inevitably led to bingeing. (Not sometimes, not most of the time, but every time.) Yet, I would still restrict and expect not to binge. “This time, it will be different,” I thought. It was never different. It wasn’t different until I was different. I have heard it said nothing changes if nothing changes. I slowly began to change.
Gratefully, today, after years of hard work, I no longer have insane moments with food. But I still have my insane moments in life. (Those of you who know me personally are nodding your heads up and down right now in agreement.) My challenge today is to recognize these insane ways of thinking and then to move in the direction of positive change. Awareness is key.
The next time I feel lonely, I won’t text Spencer. I am making a commitment to myself right now to call my friend, Melody, instead.
That’s positive change. That’s going sane!
Jenni Schaefer is a singer/songwriter, speaker, and author of Life Without Ed: How One Woman Declared Independence from Her Eating Disorder and How You Can Too (McGraw-Hill) and Goodbye Ed, Hello Me: Recover from Your Eating Disorder and Fall in Love with Life (McGraw-Hill, September 2009). She is a consultant with Center For Change in Orem, UT. For more information, visit www.jennischaefer.com.