Happy Friday! I hope you have a fun weekend. I have lots of fun things planned, which is still somewhat strange for me. When Ed and I were still together, fun was not allowed. In my life today, fun is required.
Everything in my life is changed for the better, not just food and weight stuff. That is what I mean when I say “fully recovered” --- leaving Ed behind AND finding joy and peace in life. At first, I thought recovered just meant leaving Ed behind, but I was so wrong about that! Recovered is about much, much more.
If you do anything especially interesting or fun over the weekend, please post and let us know. In eating disorder recovery, it always helped for me to hear about how others were enjoying their lives. Seeing other people have fun helped me to learn how to do it myself.
Oh, and thanks for the GREAT comments to my last post. Let’s all keep being perfectly imperfect.
Love,
Jenni
I have also felt/feel that my eating disorder says "no fun allowed." Today I tensed up as my roommate described to me her plans for us to go listen to live jazz and then go dancing on Saturday night. Even though I love dancing and live music, my first thought was, "oh no. find a way to get out of this." But why? I know I'd have fun. Why shouldn't I be allowed to go out and have fun? I remembered your blog and agreed to go. Thanks for giving me that little extra push!
Posted by: Laura | January 23, 2009 at 05:59 PM
I have been noticing lately that living in recovery i am allowing myself to try new adventurous things.. and not worrying (as much) about Ed stuff or how I would look doing it. The days that i notice myself slipping into old behaviors, make me realize even more so.. how miserable I was when Ed was constantly around!
I am so grateful to have glimpses of life without Ed, and the joy recovery brings. Thank you for all the support you give to so many of us!!!
Posted by: Brittney | January 24, 2009 at 06:51 PM
Well, I went out dancing last night. After a bit of arguing back in my head with ED (who was telling me I'm too fat to be there among other insults), I let myself have fun - and it was well worth it! Thanks for the post; it was a real motivation :)
Posted by: Laura | January 25, 2009 at 11:49 AM
Hi Jenni,
I'll take some time out of my schedule and make time for R & R too!
Leslie
Posted by: Leslie Murray | January 25, 2009 at 09:41 PM
Jenni, you are so brave; you have achieved so much! In dismay I could see hope from your success. Leaving ED behind and having real fun is my wildest dream. How I wish it will come true one day! Hope that great fun is with you everyday!
Yours,
Jing
Posted by: Jing Tan | January 25, 2009 at 10:59 PM