Sitting around the table at a function, it was revealed that others had histories of eating disorders. One woman mentioned that she had a wedding coming up. She bemoaned having to diet for the upcoming summer. I asked why? Everyone looked at me as if I had 2 heads. (Duh). The dress she ordered was in a different size.
People talked of living for that one moment when they would be happy, or remembering when they were happy. The beauty of recovery is that I am happy now. At peace. Imperfections and flaws do still exist, but they don't rule my day. A four leaf clover is an anomaly, but we consider it lucky. Go figure.
Occasionally, I make my patients laugh with a silly line I heard in Kung Fu Panda, "Today is a gift, that's why it's called the present!" Even I roll my eyes when I hear it. But it is truly a gift.
Recovery makes you cherish each day and live in the present, not for the summer when you might be a different size or yesterday when you thought you were happy, but today, when you can truly effect change.
Enjoy your gift.
I totally agree! And you don't even fully realize how much you were missing that gift, that present, until you're finally able to open it.
Posted by: Laura | November 17, 2009 at 12:38 PM