One of the promises of an eating disorder is that whatever your reason for starting, the promise is that things will be "better" for you. For athletes/exercisers the promise is usually that you will perform better. And you may find that your performance does improve for a bit; however, it truly is a matter of time before you will have to give up your reason for starting to begin with: your beloved sport.
I have had conversations with a number of young women about what they have had to give up because of their eating disorder and nearly every one of them said that they are not as active as they used to be. And a couple specifically said that they can no longer participate in their sport(s) because they simply do not have the mental and/or physical energy they need.
Not only has their performances suffered...they are no longer performing at all! They have given up something in which they used to find joy...something that used to make them feel good - mentally and physically.
Take stock of what you have given up or compromised on because of your eating disorder. Is it really worth it to you? Are you getting what you had hoped for or what was "promised"? What do you want to take back that you had to give up? Do you know what you need to do to get it back? If not, or if what you have tried simply isn't working - consider working with an eating disorder specialist to help (ideally one that knows something about sport psychology as well).
Let us know what is working for you and what you have been able to take back as a result of your hard work!!
